Living without you

It hurts to wake up every morning,
and think of all our exciting stories.
I know that I have to live my life for my own.
But it feels so impossible 'cause you were my home.

It hurts to fall asleep every night,
to know that you are not by my side.
For almost 3 years we had an unbelievable time,
but now you are gone and all thats left is the pain.

You told me that We go seperate ways,
but i dont want to fill this empty space.
Your place in my heart will never go away,
nobody can make the things that you made.

Maybe in some time I can be happy without you,
but i don't want to feel this *beep* I have to go through.
These days are like walking through hell and back
i miss every night where you lay in my bed.

If i just knew why you don't want me anymore,
i could maybe accept my mistakes and would stop asking for sure.
Even if i didn't do everything right and you didn't feel happy,
you could've talked with me and i would've done everything to make your world pretty.

You always said i need you so much and i never want to lose you,
but today you are happy without me and i am the fool.
I am sad and miss my old life
while you are happy and your smile is shining bright.

You didn't always treat me right and maybe it's really better that we fell apart,
but i miss you with every breath, feel you in every moment and know that you'll never leave my heart.
We are different personalities but i always thought this will be alright,
we add each other really well and we need each other in our lifes.

But now you showed me that I don't play that big role anymore,
I don't know how to handle this - i never thought it would come that far.
I honestly thought i could share my whole life
with the Mädchen that brings light into me - you should be my wife.

I always had such a big fear to lose you forever,
sometimes I dreamed of it and you just said never, never.
I dreamed of losing you so many times,
and when i woke up, we could both just laugh about it and smile.

You always told me this will never become real,
It was just a dream and I have nothing to fear.
But now the nightmare happened and was true,
i am alone although all i ever wanted was you.

We went through good and bad times and both made many mistakes,
but in the end we were a wonderful team and there was no reason to break.
I can't understand it at all,
you just said you don't love me anymore.

If you really loved me as much as you always said,
this one struggle was senseless and wouldn't have changed
your feelings for me as you always said would be so special,
but within 1 week everything went from really big to extra small.